08th May 2008
Rest
Took a day off from work after going through nearly a week of sickness.. or maybe more. Just vomitted out yesterday after taking the cough syrup, made me so drowsy that I couldnt take it at all and just throw up. Fever, cough, dizzyness, troubled mind, heartache, but it’s all healing now after a good rest today.
For the 2 years relationship I had finally found a dock and resting point as well. It’s definitely an unexpected ending believing it could be a “happily-ever-after” kinda relatioship, but it just couldn’t turn out to be one. Maybe because I couldnt be the chinese cinderella in the story or maybe you’re not the prince that didn’t come with the shinning armor? Well, the story is just a way of putting it but simple fact is that the problems that we’ve been facing all the while is just being swept under the carpet. Trying to live happily accepting it till one day it has finally errupted and there’s no solution to the issue. So guess this would be the best and fast solution as you thought it could be? The process of going through dealing with it is nothing nice to be remembered and guess it will be left off at where it is for better of us. Guess I was just dissapointed that you didnt make me stay. Given a chance, I would have turned back on the day if you do really asked me to. Anyway, lotsa nice memories will still live on as long as my little brain could keep, as for others will rest in peace. Do really appreciate the time spent together, the time when I needed you, that you always offer for more then what I asked.
I will be better in sometime… and hope you do too..
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SuenZ.
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