17th Aug 2009
How much time is lost waiting when time accelerates infinitely?
I felt like I was just 18 yesterday and in a blink of an eyes I turned 26.. or will be 26 in few days.
It scares me to know how terribly fast times flies. It scares me to know my Silky is 3 years+ now and not 3 months old.It scares me when I look at myself in the mirror. It also scares me when I see the people around me looks older then I last remembered their face. It scares me even more, thinking what I have been doing in this past years of my life. Time have caught up pretty fast and it seems like I’ve got Alzheimer’s disease when I was trying hard to recall my life year by year. I know there are a lot of memories which I cant recall, a lot of memories which I seem to have left behind, or maybe I’m just having selective memory.
I’m trying to live in the now moment, thinking more of the “what-if” future, the possible road and junctions in life. Opportunities which I should grab selfishly… or let it swim freely and happily? I really wish to freeze time for now, everyday waking up to the same day and when it starts as the next day, I would be the most contented person on earth and dont mind being on my deathbed by then.
.SuenZ.
I felt like I was just 18 yesterday and in a blink of an eyes I turned 26.. or will be 26 in few days.
It scares me to know how terribly fast times flies. It scares me to know my Silky is 3 years+ now and not 3 months old.It scares me when I look at myself in the mirror. It also scares me when I see the people around me looks older then I last remembered their face. It scares me even more, thinking what I have been doing in this past years of my life. Time have caught up pretty fast and it seems like I’ve got Alzheimer’s disease when I was trying hard to recall my life year by year. I know there are a lot of memories which I cant recall, a lot of memories which I seem to have left behind, or maybe I’m just having selective memory.
I’m trying to live in the now moment, thinking more of the “what-if” future, the possible road and junctions in life. Opportunities which I should grab selfishly… or let it swim freely and happily? I really wish to freeze time for now, everyday waking up to the same day and when it starts as the next day, I would be the most contented person on earth and dont mind being on my deathbed by then.
.SuenZ.
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