Suenz Corner

Who would know there could be so many turnings in life with unpredictable junctions?

I wish I could know the signs even before reaching one, rather then reaching a dead end and realised there’s no turning. A lot of things could have failed me till a certain point I felt it is a karma, but I know that I must be strong enough to face it. Life is cruel in fact that it is true that one’s decision can never make everyone happy nor it could satisfy everyone. It could mean sadness and dissapointments that people will needs to go through, but it is important that after a period of time we need to learn that it is just part of life and we still need to learn to be happy and optimistic. Taking things openly and thinking from different dimension, it could be the best decision ever made though not for you individually, but in bigger picture.

Learn to accept, Learn to be receptive, Learn to be optimistic, Learn to see the bigger picture and most importantly, Learn to be Happy! At this particular point of time, I realised I could have changed in certain ways of viewing things. It may seems like a laid-back attitude, but deep inside, it is just mustering a particular skill - learn to let go. I would like to thank my own acting skills which may covered up on what I felt. Anyway, life couldnt get any worse.. I’m looking up now!

Oh yeah, I just spent a great deal on lenses, dry box and filters last weekend. Got a Sigma 18-200mm F3.5-6.3 DC OS and Canon 50mm 1.8 F1.8. I love the Sigma lens. Although it could perform at it’s best for indoor shots, but outdoor shooting fits the purpose of All-In-One. Definitely a good travelling lens which I will bring to Cambodia. Test shots!

SuenZ

Sitting right in front of my desk at 3am… reminiscence. A lot of questions that came into my mind like “What if…?”. It’s just the choice we have made in life and that is where I am right now, thinking of the question “What if..?” in every junction in life IF I would have made different decisions and had different set of actions, where would I be right now and what could I be possibly thinking as well. Human especially woman can be the most unpredictable being and I could be surprised at myself sometimes for the things I have done or said. It’s been the missing puzzle in my life that I couldnt solve.. or maybe could never solve the puzzle.. or maybe it’s not meant to be solved. Life has to move on and only time can tell till when I will find it.

Anyway, I’ll be having a short trip to Cambodia this coming July. Will be making my way to Angkor Wat as well. Been anticipiting for a lot of trips, but this is the most promising one and photography will be the main purpose of the trip there. Hope it will be good.

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SuenZ

Took a day off from work after going through nearly a week of sickness.. or maybe more. Just vomitted out yesterday after taking the cough syrup, made me so drowsy that I couldnt take it at all and just throw up. Fever, cough, dizzyness, troubled mind, heartache, but it’s all healing now after a good rest today. 

For the 2 years relationship I had finally found a dock and resting point as well. It’s definitely an unexpected ending believing it could be a “happily-ever-after” kinda relatioship, but it just couldn’t turn out to be one. Maybe because I couldnt be the chinese cinderella in the story or maybe you’re not the prince that didn’t come with the shinning armor? Well, the story is just a way of putting it but  simple fact is that the problems that we’ve been facing all the while is just being swept under the carpet. Trying to live happily accepting it till one day it has finally errupted and there’s no solution to the issue. So guess this would be the best and fast solution as you thought it could be? The process of going through dealing with it is nothing nice to be remembered and guess it will be left off at where it is for better of us. Guess I was just dissapointed that you didnt make me stay. Given a chance, I would have turned back on the day if you do really asked me to. Anyway, lotsa nice memories will still live on as long as my little brain could keep, as for others will rest in peace. Do really appreciate the time spent together, the time when I needed you, that you always offer for more then what I asked.

 I will be better in sometime… and hope you do too..

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SuenZ.