Suenz Corner

Silence…

 Wordless..

I couldn’t find a word to describe my boxed up emotions. It’s a mixture of “happy with dissapointment”, “sad but relieved”, “pity and thankful”. Such complex emotions which I have gone through ever since I found my complicated self. It is indeed really hard to express emotions when I don’t know what I’m feeling right now. It’s such a grey area… which makes sense why people could laugh & cry at the same time. An intricate emotion, where human can be crying out happy tears, or laughing out loud for sorrowness. The only definite feeling I am feeling is “Acceptive”.

~ You have touched my Heart, You have touched my Soul & now you got to go… ~

.SuenZ.

Sitting right in front of my desk at 3am… reminiscence. A lot of questions that came into my mind like “What if…?”. It’s just the choice we have made in life and that is where I am right now, thinking of the question “What if..?” in every junction in life IF I would have made different decisions and had different set of actions, where would I be right now and what could I be possibly thinking as well. Human especially woman can be the most unpredictable being and I could be surprised at myself sometimes for the things I have done or said. It’s been the missing puzzle in my life that I couldnt solve.. or maybe could never solve the puzzle.. or maybe it’s not meant to be solved. Life has to move on and only time can tell till when I will find it.

Anyway, I’ll be having a short trip to Cambodia this coming July. Will be making my way to Angkor Wat as well. Been anticipiting for a lot of trips, but this is the most promising one and photography will be the main purpose of the trip there. Hope it will be good.

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SuenZ

Took a day off from work after going through nearly a week of sickness.. or maybe more. Just vomitted out yesterday after taking the cough syrup, made me so drowsy that I couldnt take it at all and just throw up. Fever, cough, dizzyness, troubled mind, heartache, but it’s all healing now after a good rest today. 

For the 2 years relationship I had finally found a dock and resting point as well. It’s definitely an unexpected ending believing it could be a “happily-ever-after” kinda relatioship, but it just couldn’t turn out to be one. Maybe because I couldnt be the chinese cinderella in the story or maybe you’re not the prince that didn’t come with the shinning armor? Well, the story is just a way of putting it but  simple fact is that the problems that we’ve been facing all the while is just being swept under the carpet. Trying to live happily accepting it till one day it has finally errupted and there’s no solution to the issue. So guess this would be the best and fast solution as you thought it could be? The process of going through dealing with it is nothing nice to be remembered and guess it will be left off at where it is for better of us. Guess I was just dissapointed that you didnt make me stay. Given a chance, I would have turned back on the day if you do really asked me to. Anyway, lotsa nice memories will still live on as long as my little brain could keep, as for others will rest in peace. Do really appreciate the time spent together, the time when I needed you, that you always offer for more then what I asked.

 I will be better in sometime… and hope you do too..

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SuenZ.

It’s been tough to get you off my head while working, but it’s even tougher talking to you while working. Finished up my work, was drizzling and it’s like a movie scene looking out from my working place. It’s a wet cold gloomy night, packed my stuffs and drove home. A lot of sweet moments and thoughts came to my mind, from the first day I got to know you. Looking into your lense, smiling while you were snapping away happily. Though it’s not an immediate connection, but we bloomed.

I remembered there was a time when I finished my exam in Uni, and I waited for you. You finished your work and came down all the way to Melaka to pick me up, back home. You looked tired, but you were just speechless when you saw me, grinning from ear to ear and gave me a peck. That was 2 years ago.

You were so different then, I always commented and make fun of the clothes when you never bothered to wear decently when going out. I still remember you wore the rainbow japanese sandals going out as well! Your pant size changed from merely 29 to 30, and slowly moving to 31. I remembered teasing you about the love handles you’ve been growing Remembered you’ve been complaining about your hair getting long, and we went to shop to get the clippers. Been clipping your hair ever since..

My love for food grew an acquired taste, knowing which place that is thumbs up and which restaurant is a no-no to visit again.. hehe. You have brought me to taste so much or, is it that we just couldnt deny the scrumpcious food available? :p Though I’m never good in cooking, I always love to experiment and cook for you. Sometimes the food really taste horrible, but you were eating like you’ve got the best food ever. Making a nice bowl of herbal soup warming the stomach is the least that I could have done that makes me and you happy. Remembering the moments when we buy scoops of Baskin Robbins, sharing it in a cup. Or times when we were so lazy and ended up with dominoes pizza or ramen noodles?

I really hate doing the laundries with the amount of clothes you wear one day. A set for work, a set for sport another for sleeping. It ends up with at least 3 shirts, 3 pants and eccetera. And weekend laundry is devastating looking at the amount of clothes you and me had together. Not including ironing yet! I’ve been a really spoilt child since young, having maid and not given any household chores. I’m still learning and I’m really sorry if I’m still really bad at taking care of the house. We are working adults and have minimal of time spent at home.. and if we do, I always love to spend it by cuddling with you watching a movie

I love it when you hold on tight to my hand at crowded places.. trying to secure me. Letting me know that you will always be there..

I know you’ll be the first person I can call when I got into an accident at early morning. Though it was just a minor one, but you gave me assurance and told me not to be afraid…

I remembered, you brought me far, to each part of KL, searching for my “perfect gift”. My perfect and adorable Silky as birthday present, which we found our bond and fate together, just few shop down the road..

I still love the moments when you put me to bed and give me a peck.. and when I wake up and gave you another before leaving…

I remembered the ‘lil not you left for me in my book, whispering I love you…

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SuenZ

Lazing on the bed now still feeling so full from the dinner at Tony Roma’s at The Gardens. Wanna wish a very Happy, Fulfilling, Healthy and Wealthy year ahead.

Everything is really good on my side, I just got an internal offer to be a SQU in HP SEA. I’m excited moving forward to this role as it is a progression career wise. It will be like a mentor role with quality assurance job scope. This includes training, coaching and giving advises to agents, call monitorings, reporting and analysis and handling call escalation. It’s definitely a difference to what I am currently doing, picking up calls and troubleshooting on problems. Another difference would be that I’m moving away from Microsoft account into HP SEA. Though there’s slight dispute on the battle of the lead trying to have me stay in Microsoft Tier 2 or moving on to this new account, I believe I have made the right choice. I’m glad I did choose this decision and I’m definitely looking forward working with some of the best people in Datacom.

 Till then, have a great rat year ahead!

 SuenZ

Might be a bit late to Welcome 2008, but nevertheless better to be late then never!

Well, hopefully this will be a better year in every sense. Doubt so with my work though, been really busy on the phone, getting into a new IW team. I would say I’m dead tired everyday at the end. Tired of talking, tired mentally… basicly the right word is EXHAUSTED! Well, good part is that it’s definitely much more interesting and variety of things to troubleshoot on :p I’m learning more about MAC for sure.. :p

Anyway, a little good news since I last blogged. I manage to pass both paper 70-271 and 70-272. So I’m earning a title of Microsoft Certified Professional and Microsoft Certified Desktop Support Technican I’m still excited

Till then, pomma!

Year end is just around with Christmas day to wrap up the year. So missing out these few weeks, I have a great news to announce that I have just passed my first MCP paper 70-270. Nothing much to be proud of considering it is an easy paper, but something to take pride for as it is a recognition as a Microsoft Certified Professional! *Oh well, that is not going to increase my salary or change anything else much though! And just last Friday itself, whole of Microsoft T2 support received some Christmas goodies!

It’s a Microsoft LifeChat™ ZX-6000. I have yet to open it and was wondering if this is good for me to use during work since it’s wireless.

And newly released LifeCam VX-7000. I gave it to my sis since I won’t be needing it at all. Maybe she can put it to good use. Opened and tested it out, it’s pretty good as it has a very clear built in microphone. 2.0 megapixel webcam which has a lot of built in function which I find pretty good!

So I’ll be taking 2 days break for now for Christmas and Boxing Day. Another one on New Year 2008. Well, what will I be doing till then… SLacK!!!!!!! Most probably just chill till year end before I gather myself again for more MCP papers and preparation for a better me!~

SuenZ

Well, had quite a busy weekend especially today itself. Just had a meet up session with Keeny who is in Malaysia for honeymoon. YES he is married, Congrats!

Took sometime these few days to select a theme for my website and really have a hardtime on it! It’s not just about choosing a decent theme that fits my requirement, but also a theme that will be able to support the photography pictures that I will be posting! Anyhow, manage to settle on this Glow theme though I have yet to link all the page nicely. So if you would like to view my photo gallery you will need to click onto the links on this main page instead of going directly to www.suenz.com … O.B.V.I.O.U.S.L.Y. I’ve linked the photo gallery to www.suenz.com/photo .

Been up really early about 6 am plus and now about 1am and preparing to get to bed. So good night and great week ahead! Ta!

 SuenZ

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SuenZ