Suenz Corner

Being in a relationship is a status, being together is just you and me…

SuenZ

I felt like I was just 18 yesterday and in a blink of an eyes I turned 26.. or will be 26 in few days.

It scares me to know how terribly fast times flies. It scares me to know my Silky is 3 years+ now and not 3 months old.It scares me when I look at myself in the mirror.   It also scares me when I see the people around me looks older then I last remembered their face. It scares me even more, thinking what I have been doing in this past years of my life. Time have caught up pretty fast and it seems like I’ve got Alzheimer’s disease when I was trying hard to recall my life year by year. I know there are a lot of memories which I cant recall, a lot of memories which I seem to have left behind, or maybe I’m just having selective memory.

I’m trying to live in the now moment, thinking more of the “what-if” future, the possible road and junctions in life. Opportunities which I should grab selfishly… or let it swim freely and happily? I really wish to freeze time for now, everyday waking up to the same day and when it starts as the next day, I would be the most contented person on earth and dont mind being on my deathbed by then.

.SuenZ.

Who would know there could be so many turnings in life with unpredictable junctions?

I wish I could know the signs even before reaching one, rather then reaching a dead end and realised there’s no turning. A lot of things could have failed me till a certain point I felt it is a karma, but I know that I must be strong enough to face it. Life is cruel in fact that it is true that one’s decision can never make everyone happy nor it could satisfy everyone. It could mean sadness and dissapointments that people will needs to go through, but it is important that after a period of time we need to learn that it is just part of life and we still need to learn to be happy and optimistic. Taking things openly and thinking from different dimension, it could be the best decision ever made though not for you individually, but in bigger picture.

Learn to accept, Learn to be receptive, Learn to be optimistic, Learn to see the bigger picture and most importantly, Learn to be Happy! At this particular point of time, I realised I could have changed in certain ways of viewing things. It may seems like a laid-back attitude, but deep inside, it is just mustering a particular skill - learn to let go. I would like to thank my own acting skills which may covered up on what I felt. Anyway, life couldnt get any worse.. I’m looking up now!

Oh yeah, I just spent a great deal on lenses, dry box and filters last weekend. Got a Sigma 18-200mm F3.5-6.3 DC OS and Canon 50mm 1.8 F1.8. I love the Sigma lens. Although it could perform at it’s best for indoor shots, but outdoor shooting fits the purpose of All-In-One. Definitely a good travelling lens which I will bring to Cambodia. Test shots!

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Sitting right in front of my desk at 3am… reminiscence. A lot of questions that came into my mind like “What if…?”. It’s just the choice we have made in life and that is where I am right now, thinking of the question “What if..?” in every junction in life IF I would have made different decisions and had different set of actions, where would I be right now and what could I be possibly thinking as well. Human especially woman can be the most unpredictable being and I could be surprised at myself sometimes for the things I have done or said. It’s been the missing puzzle in my life that I couldnt solve.. or maybe could never solve the puzzle.. or maybe it’s not meant to be solved. Life has to move on and only time can tell till when I will find it.

Anyway, I’ll be having a short trip to Cambodia this coming July. Will be making my way to Angkor Wat as well. Been anticipiting for a lot of trips, but this is the most promising one and photography will be the main purpose of the trip there. Hope it will be good.

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SuenZ

Back kicking today and I’m gonna fall dead in my bed soon! It’s FRIIIIIDAY!

Well, pretty interesting day, and I simply have one quote to put up here “Observe, Listen & Think!”. Questions on what is this all about? Just simple answer, if you would really love to learn more in life, just “Observe, Listen & Think!”. Guess sometimes in life there are pretty much things that you can learn by simply applying this 3 words.

Anyway, I’ve tried something interesting today. Trying to make a 2008 calender going by month. Did first 3 and it seems pretty good. Have yet to try printing it though. Here it is, TADAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

Just one for preview

** and yeah… this is one of my favorite pictures I have of Silky!!!

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