Suenz Corner

I just watched a movie recently, The Secret. I really like it, getting slight euphoria after watching it. Maybe psychologically it makes my mind feels happier. Life is never bad unless you wanted it to, and I believe in that too. There was a period of time in my life when I kept thinking to myself “How lucky I am!”. Good things, unexpected happy events unfold by itself and I kept on thinking the same thing over and over again “How Lucky I Am!” =) This went on for years that I kept thinking the same thing, but it is also possible that I always set my expectation to the lowest possible. Anything beyond that surprises me.. makes my heart beat a little. One quote which comes across:  

“Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.” -Dr.Martin Luther King Jr.

I really like what it says. A good example that says that we will never be able to see our whole life drawn in a map, the path to take to reach the destination or even about the journey along it. The main recipe is to always take the first step, focus on the goal and take the opportunity that comes along. Side recipe, enjoy the journey, be happy & always nurturing positive attitude in life to align to the goal =) Sometimes I really cant wait to taste the end, but life will be a long journey.

 Choose to be happy. Choose the positive outlook of life. You can choose Your Life!

One of my favourites picture from Cambodia trip =)

.SuenZ.

BACK!

After about a week’s visit to Cambodia and Angkor Wat. Interesting experience for my taste bud and eyes as as the culture there is totally different from Malaysia, but more or less quite alike to Thailand. A much hotter and more humid country compared to Malaysia. Maybe it is just the season that I am in there is hot. Was in Phnom Penh with relatives for few days before making our way to Angkor Wat, Siem Reap. Was enjoying in Siem Reap for 3 days and one of the day fully reserved for Angkor Wat. Took quite a lot quick shots with my new lense :-) Mostly are just point and shoot pictures.

When I reached Malaysia, I had quite some dissapointment with the 8gb San Disk Extreme 3 when I was trying to copy the files. It was corrupted in a way that few card readers couldnt read it, nor my camera. Had ERR CF!!! Luckily I manage to rescue the files with RescuePro, a program that comes together with the CF card. Just had a thought, that San Disk might have already known that the CF has potential problems which is why it came with the Rescue Pro program? Anyway, glad most of the pictures are recovered though quite a lot of them is corrupted Will be editing and posting it soon. One for preview

Performers resting @ Angkor Wat.

SuenZ

Who would know there could be so many turnings in life with unpredictable junctions?

I wish I could know the signs even before reaching one, rather then reaching a dead end and realised there’s no turning. A lot of things could have failed me till a certain point I felt it is a karma, but I know that I must be strong enough to face it. Life is cruel in fact that it is true that one’s decision can never make everyone happy nor it could satisfy everyone. It could mean sadness and dissapointments that people will needs to go through, but it is important that after a period of time we need to learn that it is just part of life and we still need to learn to be happy and optimistic. Taking things openly and thinking from different dimension, it could be the best decision ever made though not for you individually, but in bigger picture.

Learn to accept, Learn to be receptive, Learn to be optimistic, Learn to see the bigger picture and most importantly, Learn to be Happy! At this particular point of time, I realised I could have changed in certain ways of viewing things. It may seems like a laid-back attitude, but deep inside, it is just mustering a particular skill - learn to let go. I would like to thank my own acting skills which may covered up on what I felt. Anyway, life couldnt get any worse.. I’m looking up now!

Oh yeah, I just spent a great deal on lenses, dry box and filters last weekend. Got a Sigma 18-200mm F3.5-6.3 DC OS and Canon 50mm 1.8 F1.8. I love the Sigma lens. Although it could perform at it’s best for indoor shots, but outdoor shooting fits the purpose of All-In-One. Definitely a good travelling lens which I will bring to Cambodia. Test shots!

SuenZ

Sitting right in front of my desk at 3am… reminiscence. A lot of questions that came into my mind like “What if…?”. It’s just the choice we have made in life and that is where I am right now, thinking of the question “What if..?” in every junction in life IF I would have made different decisions and had different set of actions, where would I be right now and what could I be possibly thinking as well. Human especially woman can be the most unpredictable being and I could be surprised at myself sometimes for the things I have done or said. It’s been the missing puzzle in my life that I couldnt solve.. or maybe could never solve the puzzle.. or maybe it’s not meant to be solved. Life has to move on and only time can tell till when I will find it.

Anyway, I’ll be having a short trip to Cambodia this coming July. Will be making my way to Angkor Wat as well. Been anticipiting for a lot of trips, but this is the most promising one and photography will be the main purpose of the trip there. Hope it will be good.

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SuenZ

Took a day off from work after going through nearly a week of sickness.. or maybe more. Just vomitted out yesterday after taking the cough syrup, made me so drowsy that I couldnt take it at all and just throw up. Fever, cough, dizzyness, troubled mind, heartache, but it’s all healing now after a good rest today. 

For the 2 years relationship I had finally found a dock and resting point as well. It’s definitely an unexpected ending believing it could be a “happily-ever-after” kinda relatioship, but it just couldn’t turn out to be one. Maybe because I couldnt be the chinese cinderella in the story or maybe you’re not the prince that didn’t come with the shinning armor? Well, the story is just a way of putting it but  simple fact is that the problems that we’ve been facing all the while is just being swept under the carpet. Trying to live happily accepting it till one day it has finally errupted and there’s no solution to the issue. So guess this would be the best and fast solution as you thought it could be? The process of going through dealing with it is nothing nice to be remembered and guess it will be left off at where it is for better of us. Guess I was just dissapointed that you didnt make me stay. Given a chance, I would have turned back on the day if you do really asked me to. Anyway, lotsa nice memories will still live on as long as my little brain could keep, as for others will rest in peace. Do really appreciate the time spent together, the time when I needed you, that you always offer for more then what I asked.

 I will be better in sometime… and hope you do too..

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SuenZ.

It’s been tough to get you off my head while working, but it’s even tougher talking to you while working. Finished up my work, was drizzling and it’s like a movie scene looking out from my working place. It’s a wet cold gloomy night, packed my stuffs and drove home. A lot of sweet moments and thoughts came to my mind, from the first day I got to know you. Looking into your lense, smiling while you were snapping away happily. Though it’s not an immediate connection, but we bloomed.

I remembered there was a time when I finished my exam in Uni, and I waited for you. You finished your work and came down all the way to Melaka to pick me up, back home. You looked tired, but you were just speechless when you saw me, grinning from ear to ear and gave me a peck. That was 2 years ago.

You were so different then, I always commented and make fun of the clothes when you never bothered to wear decently when going out. I still remember you wore the rainbow japanese sandals going out as well! Your pant size changed from merely 29 to 30, and slowly moving to 31. I remembered teasing you about the love handles you’ve been growing Remembered you’ve been complaining about your hair getting long, and we went to shop to get the clippers. Been clipping your hair ever since..

My love for food grew an acquired taste, knowing which place that is thumbs up and which restaurant is a no-no to visit again.. hehe. You have brought me to taste so much or, is it that we just couldnt deny the scrumpcious food available? :p Though I’m never good in cooking, I always love to experiment and cook for you. Sometimes the food really taste horrible, but you were eating like you’ve got the best food ever. Making a nice bowl of herbal soup warming the stomach is the least that I could have done that makes me and you happy. Remembering the moments when we buy scoops of Baskin Robbins, sharing it in a cup. Or times when we were so lazy and ended up with dominoes pizza or ramen noodles?

I really hate doing the laundries with the amount of clothes you wear one day. A set for work, a set for sport another for sleeping. It ends up with at least 3 shirts, 3 pants and eccetera. And weekend laundry is devastating looking at the amount of clothes you and me had together. Not including ironing yet! I’ve been a really spoilt child since young, having maid and not given any household chores. I’m still learning and I’m really sorry if I’m still really bad at taking care of the house. We are working adults and have minimal of time spent at home.. and if we do, I always love to spend it by cuddling with you watching a movie

I love it when you hold on tight to my hand at crowded places.. trying to secure me. Letting me know that you will always be there..

I know you’ll be the first person I can call when I got into an accident at early morning. Though it was just a minor one, but you gave me assurance and told me not to be afraid…

I remembered, you brought me far, to each part of KL, searching for my “perfect gift”. My perfect and adorable Silky as birthday present, which we found our bond and fate together, just few shop down the road..

I still love the moments when you put me to bed and give me a peck.. and when I wake up and gave you another before leaving…

I remembered the ‘lil not you left for me in my book, whispering I love you…

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SuenZ

Take time to realize
That your warmth is
Crashing down on me
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Well didn’t I, didn’t I tell you
But I can’t spell it out for you
No it’s never gonna be that simple
No I can’t spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we’d be perfect for each other
And we’ll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We’d never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now

Take time to realize
Oh oh, I’m on your side
Didn’t I, didn’t I tell you
Take time to realize
This could all pass you by
Didn’t I tell you
But I can’t spell it out for you
No it’s never gonna be that simple
No I can’t spell it out for you

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Just a very sad evening…

SuenZ

Just joint in to HP SEA in the Service Quality Unit team for just about 2 weeks. Felt a little  sad that I left Microsoft team, and I kinda missed my job talking to Aussies everyday! Oh well, I guess maybe because it is horrible taking escalations cases from SEA and you-know-who will complain most.. Goodness.. 

Anyway, just last Sunday me and my mates from photokaki travelled to an elephant sanctuary at Kuala Gandah, Pahang. Saw a lot of orphan elephants, elephants that is healing from tiger attack and those elephants that are left by the group or trapped ones. Really poor thing when you see some of them and their state. There’s even one elephant without tail after surviving from a tiger attack! Borrowed AG’s G9 to take some shots….

Some “orang asli” or also known as the aborigines is HERE.

Black and white version of the pictures is HERE.

 Feel free to drop a comment, Cheers!

A little space for Lee who wants me to mention that he has been moody only for today. Ok Lee, done

SuenZ

Lazing on the bed now still feeling so full from the dinner at Tony Roma’s at The Gardens. Wanna wish a very Happy, Fulfilling, Healthy and Wealthy year ahead.

Everything is really good on my side, I just got an internal offer to be a SQU in HP SEA. I’m excited moving forward to this role as it is a progression career wise. It will be like a mentor role with quality assurance job scope. This includes training, coaching and giving advises to agents, call monitorings, reporting and analysis and handling call escalation. It’s definitely a difference to what I am currently doing, picking up calls and troubleshooting on problems. Another difference would be that I’m moving away from Microsoft account into HP SEA. Though there’s slight dispute on the battle of the lead trying to have me stay in Microsoft Tier 2 or moving on to this new account, I believe I have made the right choice. I’m glad I did choose this decision and I’m definitely looking forward working with some of the best people in Datacom.

 Till then, have a great rat year ahead!

 SuenZ

Might be a bit late to Welcome 2008, but nevertheless better to be late then never!

Well, hopefully this will be a better year in every sense. Doubt so with my work though, been really busy on the phone, getting into a new IW team. I would say I’m dead tired everyday at the end. Tired of talking, tired mentally… basicly the right word is EXHAUSTED! Well, good part is that it’s definitely much more interesting and variety of things to troubleshoot on :p I’m learning more about MAC for sure.. :p

Anyway, a little good news since I last blogged. I manage to pass both paper 70-271 and 70-272. So I’m earning a title of Microsoft Certified Professional and Microsoft Certified Desktop Support Technican I’m still excited

Till then, pomma!